Another Waste of Everything You Dream Of

Haih....
Mak aku cakap tak baik mengeluh. Tampak seperti berputus asa dan pasrah.

Pasrah itu bagus, bermakna kita meredhakan ketentuanNya. Tapi tak enak jikalau tanpa dorongan usaha.

Usaha membuta tuli pon tak menjamin apa-apa. Perlu ada perancangan, perlu ada pelan.

Namun hati-hati bila buat perancangan, di kanan wajib ada panduan, dikiri harus ada sokongan, bentangkan peta disulam dengan pemerhatian.

Walhal panduan dan sokongan tak cukup jika tiada akar pegangan yang teguh, tiada cabang keazaman yang tinggi.

Makin menjadi bila ditambah dengan kesuburan moral dan rasa tanggungjawab sosial.

Kikis rasa bangga,
Tanam benih hamba,

Buang rasa takbur,
Lempar rasa kufur,..

:) smell u later

A Taste of My Own Medicine

Geesh, its almost half of the year already. Work still sucks, no offense, and according to my calculation, i would still be a super geek antisocial jokers in the next few years.

Mau tak, aku tak tahu la kenapa handset aku selalu tak melekat kat tangan. Kredit RM 10 boleh tahan 2 minggu. Kebetulan pulak, dalam rumah aku, makhluk kuning tu (Digi) memang tak masuk.

Abah dah mula bising, call asyik tak dapat, tak angkat, kalau kat tempat kerja aku memang bolayan pangilan telefon (betul ka eja macam ni?).

Abah dah syak aku tukar nombor tak bagitahu dia. Pelik-pelik la instic orang tua ni.
Alasan aku?
Kat rumah tak ada coverage la bah..

Abah aku:
Seputeh tu bukan kat tengah-tengah KL ka? Macam mana boleh tak dak coverage?

Memang aku tak boleh nak jawab. Telan saja la. Nanti saya pakai Celcom ya bah?

Tadi pun sahabat yang paling aku rindu, ada hantar SMS. Maaf la, selepas 3 jam baru aku baca sebab handphone memang kat dalam bilik dari petang tadi. :(


Ish, last few weeks i've been having a series of unfortunate event. (Alasan kat boss datang kerja lambat).
Boleh pakai tak?

Selasa lepas kot housemate aku pergi kerja tak tinggal kunci rumah. Boleh terima tak aku kena kurung kat dalam rumah sendiri? Aku call boss bagitau aku halfday atas alasan diatas.

Ini reaksi boss dan collegue aku bila aku masuk ofis 4 jam kemudian. (sambil ketawa sinis)

Mat, can't you figure any other excuses rather then that? Is that all you got? Entah-entah ko pergi dating kat Midvalley kot..

Nak jawab kah? Baik tak payah.
Telan sudah.

Call Me Hyper Hectic Talisman

CERCA

KALUT

KERING

KONTANG

RIMAS

LEMAS

SEMAK

BINGIT

DURJA

HAMPA


Pakej lengkap kot..

Pakai topeng senyum sudah, letak gam UHU kat lesung pipit, bangun, mara. :)

Kalau Einstein masih ada

E = MC2

Uncle Albert, rumus ni boleh selesaikan kusut dalam hati tak? Atau cari punca kuasa dua kepada serabut?

Sebab kalau dah dapat punca kuasa dua serabut, boleh jawab masalah kosinus perasaan bergantung kepada pemberat dan titik perpulahan ego.

Kalau boleh, tolong samakan percanggahan tangen otak sekali sebab nak hapuskan nisbah kuasa dua nafsu. Kelak nanti tak menghasilkan kekalutan infiniti.

Boleh kan Pakcik Albert kan?

Why February Has 28 Days

Entri bulan Februari, mungkin sesuai kot bercakap tentang hati dan perasaan memandangkan semua orang tengah berkira-kira on how their Valentine's Day suppose to be like.

Mere coincidence, its falls on Saturday. Mesti penuh hotspot kat area ibu kota ni kan?

Aku pasti semua pasangan tengah korek tabung nak belikan hadiah for their mate and hope it would be the best present ever or so it seems cause next year you'll be doing and hoping for the same thing. And its have to be better then this year.

Its a hard task~

The last Valentine's present that i've got was a quarter of chocalate cake (if i'm not mistaken) and a choc bar back in 2001. Time tu memang terasa dunia ni ana yang punya. Bahagia habis gua cakap lu.

Damn, i get excited too when it comes to February but for a very different reassons. My ex's birthday falls on February and then come Valentine. Ouh i'm living a perfect world.

Past tense.

Funny how love can be such a powerfull force. Its like a giant magnetic field with volatile current running over it. Every move is risky and unhandy. You either miserabble or happy. Thats it. No easy way in nor easy way out.

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Feb 14 2001. I have no extra penny to spend on a Valentine's gift. I was 16 for god sake and it was my first ever Valentine's Day. Tapi nak jugak kasi hadiah. Tak nak kalah. Yela, kawan-kawan semua dah bungkus hadiah siap dengan bunga lagi.

I've come out with an idea. I'll dedicate a song to her.

Masa tu aku baru berjinak-jinak dengan gitar, baru cuba-cuba nak melembutkan jari. Setakat nak main chord simple pontianak(C, Am, F, G) tu boleh la. Aku nyanyikan lagu This I Promise You by Nsync diiringi petikan gitar aku yang lintang pukang dan aku recordkan dalam kaset.

Masa tu kaset adalah medium audio utama. Cakera padat masa tu seems light years away.

I gave it to her the next day and never ask her about those things again cause i was too embarrased. She would have laugh at my face if she listen to the tape again today.

But its a pleasent memory though and i tend to keep it as long as i can remember. You try to show her how much she mean to you, try to please her so that she will always be by your side, try to makes her feel special try everything to give her warm and comfy.Those feelings are hard to get.

Happy hours felt like a minutes right? No wonder February has only 28 days.