cracked up

ever felt like todays things was going on smoothly for you and the next day was all ups and down? chaos, got deluded between friends and enemy. sucks to know that someone are talking behind your back, someone you know. the fact you don't really know who to trust make you really scared and its like you are alone even though you are in the middle of the crowd. some of good memories you have been trough together starting to fade away and make you feel so damn stupid. the world is turning its back on you, makes you feel vulnerable, trashed, and to mixed things up with a 'good taste' of the 'life flavour', you had so much to do and to think about while 'things' around you keep going worse plus you keep on thinking even though its not worth it at all.

I've BUZZ my friend yesterday looking for S.O.S and we've been talking about how this final semester would be for both of us and what we're looking forward to. surprisingly, she said " I'm so excited to know that this is my last semester. should get rid off my ass sooner. like to be some place else where i can start it all over again." i said to her, "good idea!! me too. a sweet escape might help i guess, concerning the unfortunate event that I've been trough lately. but on top of that, there's so many good memories lying over here makes me wonder how I'm gonna leave them behind and sooner or later i have to. just had a few month to go, hope to avoid any trouble in paradise and enjoy the moment with everyone i care about because I'm not good at saying good bye. not at all.