semua yang beliau buat semua tak masuk akal

bulan ni memang menjadi milik Tun Dr Mahathir. semua bercakap tentang beliau. mempersoalkan tindakan beliau. menyokong beliau dari belakang. menyindir beliau secara terang-terangan.

terbaru, menteri belia dan sukan. tak hadir upacara perasmian GT, datang petang buat sidang media, menggesa muhkzani dan Tun letak jawatan dalam kerajaan.

alasan?

sebab dah keluar UMNO

percaya kepimpinan Pak Lah


perlukah? smpai mendatangkan masalah kepada majlis bertaraf global? sebab muhkzani? bodek? entahlah..


cuba renung sejarah, 20 tahun dulu. rancangan dan tindakan Tun semuanya dikatakan tak masuk akal.

jambatan pulau pinang? Mustahi!!
kereta buatan Malaysia? sangat mustahil!!
KLCC? lagi sangat mustahil!!!

"gile ape buat jambatan panjang2!!"
"jangan berangan la nk buat kereta sendiri."
"nak mampos agaknye buat bangunan tinggi2!!"

tak masuk akal kn?


Tun ada alasan sendiri.

hari tanpa tembakau

a world without smokers like a milk without fat and pretty much like a scotch without an alcohol

heee...

teka teki teku

smlm borak pasal teka teki. teringat perjalanan ke kelantan 4 tahun lepas nk pegi meminang utk one of my friend's cousins. ktorg ditemani oleh org tua yg sgt disegani di kampung.

*da arwah 2 tahun lepas. semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatasnya. Al-Fatihah.

sepanjang perjalanan kami dihantui teka teki yg menyakitkan hati from this old guys. rase nk bkk pintu then tggl die kt hutan tanah merah tu. nk tau cne rase die? teruskan membace..

pokok ape paling orang takut? ble jmpe jek mesti lari?
pokok nk tumbang.

bas ape paling kuat di dunia?
bas tikam batu kt sg petani.

sakit ape paling sakit?
sakit leher. bila paling jek sakit.

nk lagi?

knape bangau suke angkat sebelah kaki?
kalo angkat dua-dua mestila die jatuh.

ikan ape besr sket dari ikan paus?
paus goreng tepung.

marah x?

selepas sesi berpeloh

habes interview i was asked to waited outside with my hand still holding on to my zip. setengah jam tggu, and I'm beginning to asked around if i could go home or i have to wait for another sessions or whatever...

"sis, what am i waiting for? is there any other sessions?"
"you have done your interview don't you? let me check first."

then i lost her from sight. after 15 minutes,

"haidar, I'm sorry, i couldn't find your form."
"so"
"OK, this is what you'll do. you can go home, and if you were shortlisted, then we will call you back in 2 or 3 days."
"well, OK then, tq."

dammit, buang masa aku. then i call merq ajk lunch. lapar, panas, haus, sume ade. lunch kat desaria. after about an hour i received a call from anonymous number.

"ni haidar ke?"
"yes, talking."
"kt mne skang?"
"kt cyber lg."
"ok, leh dtg HSBC blk x?"
"boley2. 10 minutes."

aku, merq and faeza has a question mark kt dahi. why? aku ad tertinggal brg keh? smpai je kt sane..

"ko haidar?"
"yup."
"mne ko pegi? ape la, x nmpak neh?"

smbil pgg form aku, he showed me the part where HR manager wrote, ' accepted'.

tq so much to krie, merq, faeza, abah, bang li, mak lang, mak ndak and all the luck i've received from everybody during the process. owh, not to forget.. jobstreet.

what a day, full of suprises

i thought today would end up to be a total disaster for me. cube bayangkn, i should be at the HSBC interview sessions at cyberjaya, at 9 am. bangun pkl 8.40 am and it takes me half an hour utk bersiap. mmg sgt kalut and after one last check on my document that i should bring along, all of the photocopy of the original certificate was missing.

"sial, ni mesti tggl kt umh".

mase br bertolak dgn merq dari desaria, jarum-jarum jam dah menjerit cakap da pkl 9.30 am. ok, it takes 15 to 20 minutes from desaria to HSBC where i should be there half an hour ago. fine! on top of that, nk kna photocopy blk all of the document that required for the assessment.

"kita photocopy kt jln technocrat nnt lah"
"fine with me"
"alamak tutop la"
"what? then?"
"patah balik then photocopy kat lim kok wing, ok?"
"ok"
"then kita amek faeza g breakfast dlu"
"baik"

haih, i should have check on them earlier before. skang da menyesal. sigh. but anyway, pg jugk interview, merq and his soul mate faeza yg hantarkn. i filled up the registration form and waited for my turn to be called inside. no giliran, 68.

i was so nervous. this is somehow my first interview, so i'm not pretty sure what to expect. g toilet. zip seluar pon nk amek bahagian mempersendakan aku. rosak.!! xboley tutup.

"shit!!"
"are you haidar"
"yes, i am"
"ok, please follow me."
"demmit"

jalan ikot mamat tuh dgn tgn kiri pgg zip suar, tgn kanan pgg fail. weirdo!! then, berakhirlah interview session setelah puas merembes kelenjar adrenalin dan muke yg da merah padam berkat soalan interview bagi seorg yg pemalu mcm aku. lega.

healthy dose of happiness

yesterday wasn't so bad for an energetic young boy like me, struggling to find a good job while facing the most difficult mass time line in my life. i met loads of people. teachers, Friends, ex classmate, old buddy, old buddy's mom. i saw all kind of sparks in the eye of most people that i met. a kind of sparks that lead to a generous, pure, grateful kind of smile.

for some reason, those feelings do have a strong chemistry reaction. its somehow stabilized my emotion's neutron. some say "the love is in the air". i think i really felt that in almost every possible ways. you can feel the pure love pouring from their heart by the meaningful look they gave you and hope you'll achieve success in every single things you do.

i tried to captured their happy face, especially my friends, tried to read whats insides their mind cause i tend to keep their faces that way and to do so i have to identified the right trigger. they are really one of a kind and i love them all. ALL.

"i love all of you more then yesterday but not as much as tomorrow".

melancholy and devine

don't be like me,
likewise easy to stumble,
yeap,
I'm being a bad example

just don't follow my footsteps,
can't handle any kind of provocation,
excitement,
mistakes,
failure,
desperate.

maybe its good to be ordinary,
for far and for most,
less seems better.

don't ask to much could have been a good option,
not loads,
but pretty well happy,
indeed.

violent earth

hujan

panas

hujan

panas

pening!! sejok then panas then sejok balek

factor:

global warming, CO2 emissions, forest violation, polluted ozone, decreased territory of both pole, over exploited sources.

china has been stated to be the major contributor of CO2 regarding to its turnover to industrial based country. India are in second placed followed by USA. CO2 is vital in the cycle of life where plants uses CO2 to create food and releases O2 for living creatures to breath. tugas lain adalah untuk memerangkap haba, meanings to preserves the temperatures of the planet. but to much of CO2 in our atmosphere can lead to several damages. global warming, big flood, and more.

several studies indicated that they are evidence of over exploited forest activities throughout the globe leading to a massive distinction of protected species. redwood trees, white tail eagles, panda and many more. fishing industries are having the same problems with likes of major fishing countries like Netherlands, Fiji, and several island across the Caribbean seas. the unappropriated management in fisheries by these countries lead to a devastating of marine life by the provision in usage of illegal fishing vessels and fishing equipment. only Australia manage to sustain their fishing industries in order to achieve the sustainable growth in marine cycle.

haha.. ape la aku merapik..
da lame berangan nk menulis untk mag sebenarnye, social and environmental issues, etc..
harap-harap la..hehe..

'make love not war' - hell's angel hippies 1966 Sans Fransisco

apsal 7?

herm,, bukak mate tgh hari td da x nmpak pc aku kt hujung kaki, x nmpak gitar kapok bila ku pusing kanan, x nampak along kala menoleh ke kiri, xde sliding door kt hujung kepala aku. owh, aku sudah di rumah sendiri bila telinga aku menyahut comand ayah aku soh mandi!!

pas mandi, kuar makan nasi air feveret aku sorg2 sambil tggu kroni sampai. topic utk hari ini berkisar tentang planning aku in the future. sume nk tanye, sume nk tahu. rokok pon habes banyak seperti kapasiti kebiasaan bila aku melepak.

balik umah!!
....
tenet!!
thanxs dila sebab kasi aku kerja mau buat...

7 tentang aku.
1. suka jalan
2. gila camera
3. suka nyanyi walaupun sora x sedap
4. arsenal sampai mati
5. manchester united sucks
6. hyper aktif x tentu pasal
7. cepat busan

7 yg menakutkan
1. lipas
2. duit tarak
3. kawan tarak [paling takut]
4. ilang panca indera
5. kawen awal.. opss
6. x dapat men bola
7. x dapat menyanyi @ melalak

7 lagu sekarang
1. dig - incubus
2. rock and roll machine - the donnas
3. bonda - m.nasir
4. deeper conversation - yuna
5. suara kekasih - alleycats
6. polaroid - oh chentaku
7. you give love a bad name - bon jovi cover's by arch enemy

7 benda slalu sebut
1. haih..
2. hak3
3. pergh...
4. siot
5. thanxs..
6. geli mat
7. nes o peng

7 amat bernilai
1. family
2. kawan
3. duit
4. wallet
5. deria
6. memori
7. kasih sayang cewah!!

7 pertama kali
xpaham sgt tp aku bantai jek...
petama kali - umor
1. baca suratkhabar - 5 tahun
2. baca quran - 7 tahun
3. nek keta bomba - 6 tahun
4. naik van jenazah - 16 tahun
5. dating - 16 tahun
6. isap rokok - 14 tahun
7. masuk hospital - 18 tahun

tag-tag yah..
1. nat saje dengki kt ko
2. alyn cpt kembali menulis
3. eamy jgn runsing lagi
4. naja aku nk hadiah konvo

haih....

ahad jahat

hari inih sangat jahat. xtau kenapa. everything seems not well place. I've craved and handled a lot of blunders before, but not this time. naja dah balik Sarawak baru pagi tadi, and I'm starting to miss her so much. she's really a good listeners though. nat pon dah tune in to another episode without saying goodbye but i don't blame her, me neither are pretty sucks at saying goodbye!!! hope she'll take a good care of herself.

afterward, my turn!! new chapter huh? new routines, new habit, new, new and new. i have no idea how i wanted it to be yet and starting to think how to put myself trough. the hard way or erm.. maybe it isn't that bad at all. life is full of surprises, hope, dreams, etc. that's whats really makes me move on, to have faith, to achieve goals, to believe in having a better life. but yet, here i am, thinking craps, loosing focus all the way together with getting annoyed in things i used to love. told you, ahad memang jahat.

its rainy outside and added tonight's gloomy flavour in to my chiller's wannabe brain. rase mandom, dull, empty. try nak having fun watching my favourite teams in Barclay's. guess what? hampeh!! Arsenal main macam sampah and I'm getting pissed because of it, makes me ended up here, complaining trough this patient medium. sigh~. ahad memang jahat kan?


maybe a cup of coffee would cheer me up..

one starfuck please, without star.

tq.