i know, you know, i think, u dont, u act, i'm blank

finally... i rarely got a chance to write lately. ya i've been on the net several time but then just enough to read my mail.

well as far as i'm concern, a lot had happened. to me, to my friends, nearby and far away, so called digital friends behind friendster, myspace and facebook monitor and obviously to the world.

earlier this month i've been assigned to cleared up all the items that came up from our front office in London at night, err london time. meanings, my work circles would be from 9pm to 6am. though it may sounds interesting, but i have to sing a hell of a good bye song to my social life. sigh~

by the way, i will spend the first day of RAYA working. bitter isn't it? this company sure owe me big time. Ramadhan in KL? Kangar is far more better..

as so you know, last few days it had been a major turmoil for all the big apples in USA finance. the effect of the volatile share and credit market leading to a massive turnover by the investor.

Lehman Brothers Bank, of the Federal 18, one of the most recognizable, 150 years in the biz, collapsed.

Meryill Linch, taked over by Bank of America. AIG, are on the edge to join Lehman Brothers but thanks to the USD 40 billion injection by US government that make them stay above water. its been a chaos in my office as we put a big effort to hedged every possibility that may came out unlucky for us. err..OT.

As a result of being in a steady state, our boss bought us a pizza. Pizza?`~sigh


to add with the crucial flavor of world madness, its the colors of what all of my friends painted to the storyboard this month. i had few friend who has ended up their relationship with their loves one. a friend who just found love but not sure whether it was the right time to make a move. a friend who simply just learned how to flirt. people getting married, migrate, dead. a friend who had no idea what he was doing until now. me, being a jerk sometimes.

world. colors. wheels. karma.yin and yang.
how about that to explain everything. hee..

in loving memories of Rick

early this morning i recd sms frm anonymous number, saying...

"just to inform u that our dear beloved brother Gupreet passed away this morning around 2am. the cottage leaves the resident at 1pm and the funeral will be held at Loke Yew by 2pm."

Gupreet @ Rick was in UK confirmation team, the same team as i am. A cool guy with tall and pretty handsome features and perhaps a heavy drinker. With the piercing all over his face, u wont believe his actually afraid of rats. heh.

2 days back i was with him with the rest of my team hang out at one of our favourite stall near Jalan Pudu. Laughing, teasing each other and we're planning on following our department night out at Rum's Jungle this coming Friday.

Today is suppose to be a Merdeka celebration at our process floor and last night we finished up decorate at 3am just to make sure our team will grab the prizes. Come today, we wrapped up all the decor and choose to leave it just like that cause its feel like something is missing.

Actually we're planning on touring the floor while singing a patriotic songs and then Rick comes with his sarcastic opinion like always. I remember he said, "come Friday, I'm on MC" and strolled out with a big laughed. There goes your MC man...

I was at his funeral just now and i was thinking, one can deceased with no alarm. Today he was with you and tomorrow he's out of reach..far...

Its only a matter of time. When your name is written, your time to leave the world has been decided. Never too early or neither late. Never ever in my life I've lost my close friend and i still don't know how to react. He was sitting in front of me in the office for god sake.


When i saw the same silhouette that i saw everyday in front of me went burning, i was like..
"this is it"



There goes our cool guy.
Gupreet@Rick 1981-2008

Owh by the way, that anonymous number is Rick's number that I'll never save it off.

Without Wax

Did you know that the word sincere is originated from Latin word sen Serra that means without wax?

This sen Serra thingy started back in Galileo's time centuries ago where peeps raced to create beautiful statue and sculpture to present it to their emperor or for academic reasons. So, sometimes when there is a foul on their masterpiece, they will cover it with wax. By that time, every artwork that has no slack at all, meanings true form of it without any added compartment are called sen Serra', without wax.

Now you know what sincerely stands for rite? The true meaning behind the word.



Without wax,

Haidar

aku?pervert?

memang da jadi lumrah aku, bangun tido mesti nak buang hajat dulu. ini terjadi mungkin kerana sistem penghadaman aku sangat-sangatlah efisyen. masuk terus proses, tendang keluar secepat mungkin. err.. moto buah pinggang aku.

rutin....

ok, aku sangat concerntrate bab2 hajat neh but pagi tadi disebabkan nak habiskan saki baki digital fortress yang aku baca dari mggu lepas, tumpuan aku terganggu. sangat terganggu.

sampai ofis, log on, muka biru pujuk perut jangan buat hal...

rat race..penah dengar x?
hari ni bursa malaysia anjurkan satu larian dengan memakai ofis wear yang disertai beberapa syarikat sekitar kuala lumpur.

2 days back aku dapat satu email about this race and a couple of changes has been made like gentz punye washroom kat annexe dijadikan bilik persalinan untuk peserta perempuan. guess what? aku x take note pon email tuh...

bukan xde tandas dekat floor aku, tapi aku perlukan rokok untuk membantu aku fokus dan hanya annexe punya tandas jek yang menyediakan kemudahan tu.

tak berjaya pujuk perut aku untuk tenang, aku pon berlari-lari anak ke tandas annexe.
masuk...berhenti....muka jadi hijau....
aku dengar jeritan....aku panic.....

datang makcik cleaner..." dik, tandas lelaki da tukar, sini bilik perempuan salin baju, tandas lelaki kat dalam bursa... adik jalan terus... belok ka.... ... ... .....

aku tak dengar lagi ape makcik cleaner tu cakap sebab aku dah menonong cabut dari situ. haih...
baru teringat....

email

serban party

sebenarnya aku sangat kagum dengan orang Punjabi. rata-rata mereka masih mengekalkan pegangan mereka.

tradisi lain aku xtau sangat la tapi yang paling jelas, serban yang berbalut ketat kt atas kepala tuh memang petanda paling senang utk mengenal kaum ini.


er..
dijelaskan disini, entry ini bukan berunsur perkauman yah...

jgn salah faham!!!

sorang punjabi yang aku kenal kat tempat kerja.

ya.. memang saban hari beliau tetap setia dengan serbannya. dibalut kemas menutup telinga. riak mukanya menunjukkan beliau bangga mempromosikan keindahan tradisi dan kepercayaan beliau.

hari isnin kaler biru..
selasa kaler hitam...
rabu kaler kuning...

tapi...

dalam 2 minggu lepas, aku dan teman hadir annual dinner ofis aku kat KL Convention Centre.
diberitahu, si polan diatas turut serta.

gambaran aku biasa.

tak kaler hijau, mesti kaler kuning. tak kaler kuning mesti kaler hitam.


si polan sampai.

err..
serban dia tompok-tompok ala polka dot la..

rakan sebelah bisik. " serban party dia kot..."


"mungkin"