cracked up

ever felt like todays things was going on smoothly for you and the next day was all ups and down? chaos, got deluded between friends and enemy. sucks to know that someone are talking behind your back, someone you know. the fact you don't really know who to trust make you really scared and its like you are alone even though you are in the middle of the crowd. some of good memories you have been trough together starting to fade away and make you feel so damn stupid. the world is turning its back on you, makes you feel vulnerable, trashed, and to mixed things up with a 'good taste' of the 'life flavour', you had so much to do and to think about while 'things' around you keep going worse plus you keep on thinking even though its not worth it at all.

I've BUZZ my friend yesterday looking for S.O.S and we've been talking about how this final semester would be for both of us and what we're looking forward to. surprisingly, she said " I'm so excited to know that this is my last semester. should get rid off my ass sooner. like to be some place else where i can start it all over again." i said to her, "good idea!! me too. a sweet escape might help i guess, concerning the unfortunate event that I've been trough lately. but on top of that, there's so many good memories lying over here makes me wonder how I'm gonna leave them behind and sooner or later i have to. just had a few month to go, hope to avoid any trouble in paradise and enjoy the moment with everyone i care about because I'm not good at saying good bye. not at all.

that bitchy inbalance rounding error

I was wondering alone in my faculty waiting for a friend when I suddenly got slapped by my supervisor that I've been running away from in this past few weeks. why? because i was doing my work far beyond the time line that she gave me. plus, she was about to labor her first baby next month i guess. so she want me to finish it in time before she crack!!

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lucky for me I've just finished it yesterday so i just hand it over to her. hooray!! but not very lucky for me obviously, for the likes of her, i mean, an expertise in her field, it's not difficult for her to detected the problem that I've been trying to solve in a month!!! sigh ~ and never been solved actually. and then she goes like this ' you have to this and this and this, calculate the output using this and this and this, interpret like this and this and this...."

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meanings, i have to work it all over again and email it to her by tomorrow. but I'm glad that my findings are all significant and valid according to what she says except, i just has to take care that formulated bitchy of in balanced rounding error in my outcome!!!

Regret? I Had a Few..

Today I've roared my anger to someone I'm not suppose to be yelling at. The fact that he/she is older than me is what I regret the most.

Sigh~

Now, I'm not very comfortable with the likes of me being so annoyingly stupid ass and i hope i can forward my apologize to him/her. Hope pretty much that he/she noted my lack of respect on his/her sandy heart and allow the wind of forgiveness blow it all the way.
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None of this never happens before but maybe I've lost control of my left brain in a split second and in that split second,
I've forgot..
who am i...
what am i..
...
where i left them?
the normal me*..
the calm headed me*..
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common sense..
my smart ass..

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^ damn me!!

reflect your feelings

some says musics is "the best way to exspress your feelings " and it come with thousands of different interpretation and prespectives. either way i say "lets reflect it now"!!

1. under preassure - queen feat david bowie
2. are u lonesome tonight? - elvis persley
3. lean on me - micheal bolton
4. wasted time - skidrow
5. true colours - phil collins
6. heavens a lie - lacuna coil
7. quit playing games with my heart - BSB
8. is this it? - the strokes
9. without you - silverchair
10. suara kekasih - alleycats

can u guys help me with this?

geeky, freaky, nerdy me

# rock n roll machine - the donnas

hari ni adlh hari plg x sosial bg aku..
rse kaku..
rse keras..
rse tepu..

knape hah?

bangun tido, mandi, tros g library,
lunch kt foyer library (naja yg bungkuskn),
g jwab test pkl 4, kuar plg awal,
spnjg 10jam neh br borak dgn naja n bijan,
blk test msk library balik,
dok sorg2 kt meja, mata terbeliak wat keja.

tgk jam da pkl 7 p.m,
bru sedar yg aku neh homosapiens,
bru sedar yg otak aku ade kapasiti tertentu,
bru sedar bontot aku da jemu,

p.s //; bru sedar aku br sedut sebatang rokok jek ari ni...